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L'Agenda de M�re - vol 3 , 1962 March 13, 1962You're in a bad mood; oh yes, I could see it from far away.(Satprem voices various complaints, then adds.) And then to top it off, the other day you tell me this Agenda isn't interesting either, that it's not worth keeping. So what am I doing here?What? What's not worth keeping? Your Agenda.My Agenda? But I treasure it! Oh, you said it didn't interest you....Me? I said that! Page 121 Yes. You sure did!Then I was lying. No, obviously not. But you said it didn't interest you and it should be filed away in a corner or I don't know what. So what am I doing here?You surely misunderstood me. I said it's unpublishable for the time being; that's quite different. Yes, it's certainly not publishable right now.And I made a date with you for fifty years from now. I was very serious: I was laughing. When I laugh I am being serious. No, no, mon petit, it's simply that ... you have swallowed some poison. No, you even told me that if you happened to go you would leave a note saying it shouldn't be published.Published? Certainly not in the newspapers. It will be for those interested in the yoga. Well, that's different.I was speaking about newspapers and magazines and the outside world. I said, "I don't want the outside world to scoff at something sacred." That's all. Of course.And that's all I said. Maybe I didn't put it in exactly those words, but I said it was for those who love me. That's the point. For those who have loved me, well, it's all right, I give it to them; even if they forget me, it will make them remember. But it's my gift to those who continue to love me. And I don't intend to give them a worthless gift. No, no, I must really have expressed myself very poorly, because it was quite the opposite. I deem this Agenda far too intimate, far too near and dear to me, to be thrown as fodder to a bunch of idiots! Page 122 I fully agree! But you said (at least I thought you did) that you would systematically file this Agenda away, that it would never even be at the disposal of those interested in the Work.No, not that. I said two things. One, if I make it through to the end, I may even let it be shown to the public, for the living proof will be there: "You don't need to scoff - just see where it leads - HERE!" And if the Lord decides it's not for this time, well, then I will give it to those who have loved me, who have lived with me, worked with me, endeavored with me, and who respect what was attempted. It will be my parting gift ... if I go. And I don't intend to.
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